8- The Suicide Epidemic

I a brought to you by volume only see research life can bring many difficult situations, domestic violence, addictions, poverty and even sexual abuse by your loved ones welcome, Amy, and the queue here and you have no also here with Dr. boys Nikolai can listen to life online. David David W8 80.biz.com or you can download the 888 and that is nature to stay tuned later on will be opening fur-lined. So today I wanted to speak to you guys I wanted. I was hoping that everyone had a wonderful Christmas, which is the most joyous time of the year and I know that Christmas is very special for most of us and I hope that everybody had a wonderful Christmas. Though I have to know anything that Boris would agree with me. We both hide something weighing very heavily in our mind. We realized because of a tragedy that hit close to home.

We realize that for some people, Christmas with us not a joyous occasion and so my sign in Christmas day gave me very good news. He told me he had gotten straight A's this semester is very good news from other that my daughter and son also told me that the little third-grade little girl had spoken about last week from a double homicide.

Now triple homicide suicide has joined her mother and her little brother and having I remember praying for this little girl and I was wondering what were people's hopes and I can tell you with some of the reactions were people were hoping that she survived this GPA to overcome the memory of her father doing such a horrible thing. Having lost her entire family that should rise above a find the strength in this life normally that's what we all hope for that and some other people thought that if she doesn't survive this. Who wants to live without memory who wants to go through life knowing that once you had a family and it's all gone and so only God knows. Sometimes he takes the very best early. Only God knows why things happened the way they do and I thought to myself. There was a time I lost my entire family I was 15 I did came to sisters back when I married at 27 that when I was 15. It was as if my family had died and this is what maybe some people worried about this little girl that they were thinking he was best you can make it if that which she grow up with PTSD and be suicidal. I have to tell you that my teenage years being alone and having no family even though I had a strong belief in God were very difficult and because I had PTSD and I didn't have any support system except friends that I would make, and thank God for that and the people that he would put in my way. I was subconsciously suicidal.

Sometimes I was conscious of it that every time that I did a lot of drugs I say I was suicidal. I remember going on and I talk about this in my book because I want to show the world that one point I was very human.

Just because I'd made it this far. Or I believe to be successful, doesn't mean it was always this easy. Sometimes things take time and I remember that I waited self-medicating and one day I was self-medicating for three days in a row, cocaine, and now this would be my maybe third convolution at this time I passed out and asked the person was holding in the bathroom. He described to me.

Blue my mouth wide open, my tongue sticking out. What do I remember complete page lack.

I was laying flat in still air made air and it was complete peace and serenity. I love where I was and where I was coming from.

With narrow and where I was going was wide and it was welcoming and I wanted to continue but something kept me there. The person holding me would say my name, then mention my daughter's name was maybe two or three years old at the time. Amy your daughter Amy your daughter and the voice that was very efficient at first kept coming in louder and louder and I remember that I took a deep breath and I try to stand up concerned about my daughter knowing I had to come back for her. What's wrong with my daughter was going on with my daughter I would say but my legs are spaghetti and I didn't get the strength right away.

I was pretty much coming back and you know maybe those are the things that people worry about that can happen though I was very blessed and for some reason I did not die and I'm here because of a I've tried to make the best out of it.

I've tried to do what I can with my days and try to make my teeth count and try to make everything worthwhile so that I know that my life and my being here is not in vain.

My faith helped me through a lot of things that it was a combination of things. Not only was it my faith that I that guru because of constant prayer, but also my actions. What I would do doing, kind things, helping others. Actually, I heard in ex I did look at psychology psychologists and things in a week. Things to see how else I can help people because it's not only my opinion that counts or what I know. I mean I try to help that we can all learn from each other. We all have something that we can bring to the table in this exit station psychologist talked about having responsibility. He then talked about how he even spoke to people who was suicidal and they needed to have responsibility, the more responsibility that they had the more self-worth that they would feel, and effects. I wanted to share with you guys a something that I found it's a testimonial by somebody who was very close to suicide. This is called God saved me from suicide when I was 16 years old I commit suicide because life is just too heavy is just too much for me is just too much of an atheist to who had been through a lot of hurt by a lot of people was really self-centered and selfish and I thought about was my own pain and I couldn't get out of it and finally I decided I didn't want to keep doing life anymore when you're atheist. If you don't like it's too hard.

Visually is really no reason to keep going for me.

I was just too selfish and commit suicide in a day that I plan to suicide.

I came home from school I was having a nervous breakdown invasion.

I remember my grandma look at me on this understanding, he just knew I knew God, he said something is wrong with you, and you have to go to church. No way I'm going to church is having Christians and never have any problems in Christian that hated people talk about Jesus because they always seem to be pointing her finger at me and telling me know this hateful thing hateful speech God hates you because you do this and if you do this, then God hates you and send you to hell. So I never wanted to be around Christians sure didn't want to go on not screaming at me until I finally say okay screaming out building is so that you set up pretty much went there back. I cross my arms and I very much like waiting for it to be over so I can leave in fulfill the planet. I have committed suicide at night and the guy starts talking and preaching he says such talk about pain in people's lives seem to just describe my whole life story like he was talking straight to me, weirded out as a get out is weird.

Why Southern preacher like crying my attention as I was thinking why crying Nelson. He says there's a suicidal spirit of the hair stood up on my arms and I got it out here. This is weird is crying please come up with one. Pray for you because God has a plan for your life and you don't understand why there's so much pain in your heart that God made you, he made you to be to be connected with him. He made use of the love you love him back and experience life never known before, knowing that God is real and he loves you as a plan for your life.

Please come up and let us pray for you.

Is that suicidal spirit cried, I said too much right now is like no way I'm going to go stand in front of Christians and say problems like no way that it was really weird. I got up and I went towards the door. Door there is a man or another man. White hair. He had been crying there crying on my attention because I never seen anything said he knows the pain in your heart seeing you cry yourself to sleep in pain and your heart he experienced it while he was on the cross so you don't have to keep holding it in anymore. Wow talking about things that he couldn't have known he said, would you please let me pray for you and I felt like he loves me stranger he really loves me and he said God bless you. I love you and I want to pray for you okay can pray for me and he put his hand on my shoulder showed and I saw who I was. I saw that I was perfect God was right in front of me universe what you care about me. I just feel like saying showing me who I am love selfish all the time that I love my bet is was only till they got on my nurse my boyfriend and my friends but they did me wrong, fishing, conditional nice understood no sleeping when my boyfriend was wrong.

It just felt like I just understood my sin is not with not loving. It was not selfless. It was selfish on showing me this this picture myself and at the same time is wrapping his arms around me going. I want to make want to make you new I want to show you how to love what I want you to know that I love you just the way you are but I'm not leaving that way so it is waking up the next day my ceiling and I was like okay what is supposed to wake up today so what, why, why am I waiting why, why do you want me here in my whole life is been an adventure.

Since then I'm your host Amy Cotto and you're listening to a ADA and that they listen to us every Friday from 2 to 3 PM this was once was so sure does fly. Poverty such as by your loved ones.

The issue is not good either to overcome all obstacles and show that with the love of God, your husband and your family. You can succeed.

Love is the answer. God is the key work reveals from a very sincere and honest position.

Amy Carbo's life, a warrior who didn't give up and achieve the dream of her life. You can get to know more about her at her story on www.godisthekeyword.com or buying her book on Amazon.com. Now we continue with Amy Carbo on the welcome back to the cell here and I'm your host Cabo mainly talked about from my country ways of healing and today we've been talking about serious Thomas things that would probably make a suicidal or have a really hard time so I was taught I was trying to explain the things that I learned that I had to do to get to where I am today because I did go through bouts of moments that I did not want to let that I wished I had never been born, that I learned that it was a combination of things that helped me not only was it prayer and faith but also it was having responsibilities. It was doing things. Having the right act and also what was hearing important, less my perception. The perception of my mind how like you things do I want to look at the glass half empty or half full. Do I want to see things in a negative light on a positive light. Do I want to look at when I think about the worst case scenario, or do I want to look at the best case scenario, what could possibly be God's let's say for example a child that you that believes the first time he believes oh sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hold me, hurt me, child number two believes words hurt. Now that safety these children. Somebody says something hurtful to them now child number one may brush it off. Say you know it's only God that matters what God thinks of me that's the only thing that matters. I don't have a bruise I don't have a cut on it injured. I'm stronger than that that child may not hurt that I'm not sure about the second child so it the way that you look at things and how you look at things the way that I was able to change my perception was I stop believing that I was can allow something from my past to hurt me.

I stopped believing that I was supposed to be broken or damaged.

I learned that I had every ability. Like everyone else that God loved me just as much that everything wasn't a loss and I don't think that my success is because I own a business or I have nice things. But it's the love that I feel in my life because you could have all the money in the world and all the riches and the biggest house that if there's no love it's empty yes and also what I also what also help to me was God. Actually, every time that a song that hits home comes on the radio. I don't find it a coincidence that something I needed to hear. Sometimes when I see things on Facebook on YouTube. That's not a coincidence that something that I needed to hear. Like 10 TiVo foundation that he has. He talks about Jesus is on your side, and this really helped me. Okay, so we don't have that one. Okay, so 10 TiVo was a football player that I believe he was a quarterback.

I don't know much about football that he had miraculous numbers. He wore a biblical scripture number on his four head and everyone else did, and that one plaint all the yards that he made all the passes that he made all the numbers make sense that I don't really remember exactly what it was that it was quite interesting. It was very nice and seemed TiVo is actually a very spiritual guy I come to find out and discuss to show that it doesn't matter who you are or where you come from, but it doesn't matter how much you have it still be in your life for some first. It doesn't matter anyway. Anything that's going on. So another thing that I found very helpful was getting myself responsibilities having my daughter helped me a lot. It gave me a lot of strength and for those that don't have daughters then what they have is taken even if they have no one give yourself chores. Give yourself responsibilities.

Give yourself a routine, something to do. It'll give you self-worth. You kind things for another.

I believe that will make you feel better and for me.

Prayer was very important. That was my source of strength. Yeah, just keep yourself busy times that you feel sad times that you don't feel right. That's okay okay yeah sometimes moments that passes, and I know PTSD I have a daughter with PTSD and I do worry sometimes because she believes in psychics, then I don't. I believe in God and that belief and have to respect that because of that I have to understand where people are coming from with the don't have God and what can they turn to and they can count on themselves know that the more responsibilities that they get themselves because we are creatures that one excel that we want to succeed.

Nobody wants to stay stagnant. People want to continue. They want to feel like to have a purpose in life. People want to feel like they contribute to society. That's important about your story.

You came from Bulgaria. You're a hard worker. What does a little better about your story okay. I don't think this whole idea applies to different conditions in different situations. Well, you may have PTSD by associate know that I was getting nauseous when you're pregnant and lately through the country very through look about her relationship with people you know how I feel your symptoms. You feel my symptoms that's interesting. I don't know sometimes I feel depressed to archery living short-lived charts stay depressed. Too long we have kids to tend to his abilities to tenderly amusing to work through and that's what is existential psychologist was talking about is that give yourself responsibilities and give yourself plenty of things to do and as time gets gets by. You'll want to do better and as you do better. You'll feel better about yourself. That's just a natural thing and also mind your perception. If you think that if you feel bad for your circumstances.

So what you've been through you look at you sometimes see what's going on around the world see somebody who's in a worse situation or in a worse position.

Look at the bright side, count your blessings.

Be thankful that your life worse off aiming. You can even be thankful for a sunny day or that smoldering has his time spent with family think that we sometimes take for granted because families really are so precious for someone that lost all of her family. I do find you without your family. That's my opinion. Some people just hope we are families well.

You don't choose who you're born to.

And you don't.

You have absolutely no control over what happens to you at the time that you do have control over how you react as an adult, so here's 10 TiVo.

We can understand in the midst of pain as we serve a God heals broken things and broken people and he sent his son down to this earth. I can only imagine what kind of agony calls him but he that so that later. His son could heal broken people, God was broken and Jesus was broken so that we don't have to be in the midst of our pain. He can heal our brokenness and he can mend us if you can bring us together so that it doesn't end with tragedy and ends with triumph. It doesn't end with being able to with with hurting ends with healing. It doesn't end with with want celebration and when we know Jesus.

All those things are true and we win, and if we were playing a game right now and we were down by a huge margin for nothing in the middle of a game and still do for first quarter but we knew we just knew that at the end we are going to have a miraculous comeback how much confidence will we have how much excitement we have going some point in this game were winning but that's what we do in life is sometimes for some people. We are down 50 in the first quarter and I'm not trying to say that that's easy because there's so much that hurts around us, but when we know Jesus at some point in our game. We went at some point, we come back at some point the peace and balls out for us and we can have that whole we can have that assurance we can have that faith, that doesn't mean it's easy, doesn't mean that were not true that we can through our past into the whole piece and you're listening to the cure at 888 and that they need to have a much violent poverty searchable by your loved ones usually does not speak their book to overcome all obstacles in children with the love of God, your husband and your family. You can succeed. Love is the answer. God is the key word goes from a very sincere and honest position. Cabo's wife, a warrior who didn't give up and achieve the dream of her life. You can get to know more about her at her story on www.godisthekeyword.com for buying her book on Amazon.com and now we continue with daily gobble, 218 88 eight and that is within talking survivors mainly anybody's welcome to call. Whether you're a guy or girl having a hard time you want to share your story. You have some questions. I believe everybody story is a story of the survivor of somebody who has excelled because they made it to and they actually do have a story to tell and us, and suggested that you know the number here is 305-541-2350 again that's 305-541-2350 that lines open for callers earlier.

I was talking about the things that I did to get to where I am today. And if you read my book. Love is the answer.

God is secure will see me quite a long time about 25 years. Maybe so, like I said this I wanted this to be American open platform where people can share ideas and be there for one another and share their success stories so that we can learn to overcome things because that is the key goal in life is to live succeed and be well at least that's what God wants of us and I'm sure that's what most of us want that. I did learn from somebody. Even though I've never read the Bible and I don't really read the Bible to tell you that she is by a lot of people have told me that the Bible is very helpful is they love the Scriptures. They say that it's they just feel so so's it's so soothing to them. They feel come for any from reading I don't know to me. I mean I tried reading the Bible, but it's kind of complicated for me. I bid you don't get it, but I did find some scriptures that I found really interesting and everything to you because I did not know the Bible said this, but I was really impressed song and everything TM and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me for this, God gave us me just to make that give us power, love and self-discipline. 17 so do not fear. Finally, do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I was thinking you and help you I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Proverbs 20 240 I sorry I did it and start from the beginning, limbs started from the beginning.

Where do I find strength, my flesh in my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalm 7326 gives strength to the weary and increases the power that week, ICF 4029 for those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

ICF 4031 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 413 for the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid gives us power, love and self-discipline. 176.

Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you I will uphold you with my righteous hand.

Proverbs 22 four so for those who have a Bible verses from the Bible. I just happened to find them on Facebook that it's a combination of things. If you have a support system. If you feel alone praying, if you feel bad know that it will pass. Believe it or not.does provide will be far short he picks up never give up hope. There's always a reason for living, and there's always someone who loves you and that's God for me.

I was very blessed to have a wonderful husband. People are is also well so wonderful are not so wonderful and so unique that it helps that mean we've been married for 18 years and how was it successful and I like to say that it was by the right actions the right actions the right attitude. It's also been listening in the right spirit listening to one yeah I mean you what I found for guidance. The prayer of St. Francis's prayer you got a listen to me an instrument of your peace. Where there is hatred, let me still love there is injury there is doubt, there is despair, hope where there is darkness, light where there is sadness, joy, O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console me understood as to understand, to be loved as to love giving that we receive is in pardoning your part and Ethan tying that we are born to eternal life that helps when you have prayer site that helps the guidance of Jesus taught us helps to be forgetting to put yourself in somebody else's shoes.

You don't have to always win. You don't have to always be right. It's good to own things. It's good to be a life and seek a change seek to grow doctrinally. Mario drunk on grandfather was a preacher. Maybe you have something in me. Maybe you can listen to your and do something later actually somebody that puts it real. I mean this guy I can believe it when I was listening to Hannah's name is trance out then and now thinking about how some people have. It hardly stays and I'm always conscious of that. No pain for them and I thought what is this your heart will heal. What is this about a month ago job straight out of college opportunities for me which is place was see life as believe your current situation is not your fondest arms just because you believe it is better than yours always, you have now. I know that a lot of meat and when I talk about the right actions.

I found something else that I wanted to be.

This is a philosophy I learned to be strong when I feel like crying and to be grateful when I feel lost. Learn to be positive when negativity surrounds them to be hopeful now peaceful and when I want because no matter what situations to control me. I don't like going that's basically what my life I don't I keep going no matter what I did keep going because Patty that's what that's what the people that love me to serve in does something that is a political hose left church or church you say never give up, never surrender and think she was never that stances change me no matter how mistreated or who did what any change who I was thinking so I wanted to be who I knew I could be who I knew I to be and stop me from being a kind person that actually made me more understanding for those that are tuning in this picture, and I'm your host Amy Capo listening to 880 a and that there is is you being you and you and see you. You and hear a remember me prayer was my strength the right actions. Worse, my self-worth, but faith was my purpose though it's hard to believe become again to the close of the shell and I wish I could ask a few questions and make sure to stay tuned every Friday at 2 PM or download the ADA and the base or go to the website www.880thatbears.com.

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